Friday, January 08, 2010
God has truely been awesome. i'm gonna add another new year's resolution to my list: this year, i'm gonna make an effort to write in my journal or blog about every single incident that i see God present in, every prayer that He has answered and every lesson that He has taught me. quite impossible i know cos i can never truely count all His blessings but i'll still try. (:
anw i've been trying to sell my textbooks since last sem but i didn't find any buyers. this sem i was having difficulties too. i asked friends to advertise to their friends and juniors and i posted on the school's public folders but no one msged me. i was pretty frustrated cos i didn't want 4 textbooks taking up space in my room for another whole sem. then it struck me to pray about it and so i did.
and lo and behold the next day which was friday during yam while we were mingling during dinner, daphne was talking to beverley and suddenly she said hey mel beverley's studying accountancy at ntu too! and (this is quite bad but) the first thing i said was oh what courses are you taking next sem i'm selling my textbooks. :P and the amazing thing is she happens to take the exact courses which i'm selling my textbooks for so yay i now have a buyer and for all 4 textbooks at once too! :D
so yes God truely is amazing that he even bothers about the little things in my life. and how much more concerned wll He be regarding the big issues in my life?
like last night's ODJ message about the early church, 'so they responded by praying. their current plight didn't diminish God or the fact that He was in control. they trusted Him.', another of my new year's resolutions is to keep my eyes on God and trust Him even if my current situation suggests that things are going wrong.
do you just bear with it even though it eats you up inside?
or do you walk away?
have you ever been in a situation where you don't know whether to take a step back or a step forward? cos both ways you end up getting hurt. but at the same time you can't stay where you are cos you're hurting right now too.
sometimes i find it silly. other times i think it's one of the biggest hurdles i'll ever have to overcome.
praying real hard about it, trying to focus on Him instead of me. there's something to be learnt from all this right?
i can't wait for school to start. maybe i'll be too busy to think about it. but when the holidays come then what? i don't wanna go through it again. but i don't know what to do either.
going to church and being around family is about the only thing that makes me smile these days.
i'm just so tired really. physically and emotionally. it's gonna be tough trying to sleep at 11 at night to wake up at 6 in the morning 4 days a week. this is bad i'm tired even before school starts.
first off i'm so thankful for the many opportunities i've been given to serve God in 2009, who knew serving the Lord was this much fun. (: thank God for YAM camp and musical, both have definitely blessed me immensely and helped me grow that much deeper in Christ.
working on YAM camp was probably the best thing to happen to me in 2009. i got to know so many awesome brothers and sisters in Christ in the process and it's been an absolute joy really. somehow they really inspire and encourage me in ways that they'll never know, through what little contact i have with them. and i'm so thankful i said yes to coll when she asked me to join the comm.
i must say doing the YAM musical was somewhat of a crazy albeit a pretty short journey of two weeks. God has really opened my eyes to how He is able (haha title of the musical!) to do the seemingly impossible.
i rmb last last year 2008 church wanted to do a musical too. we started in aug i think and halfway through it was decided that there wasn't enough time to put together one by the end of the year. and i rmb thinking, even before it was decided, that there wasn't enough time to do a musical in 4 months after being used to working on plays for about 6 months before the actual performance, being on drama in st nicks. and i was lika ha i was right.
fast forward a year 2009 and here colleen was saying she was gonna put together a musical in 2 weeks. watching her struggle with the burden left a very strong impression on me and i knew i wanted to help but i wasn't confident about acting so i said i'd help with backstage stuff. but God had other plans and i ended up with a supporting role which required me to sing as well. and somehow i said yes though i was really nervous. not to mention that the song was a new one for me and i had trouble singing it.
and so i prayed about it. and amazingly the next day, i was no longer feeling nervous but i was so excited about performing! but the song was still giving me trouble and i was still forgetting my lines, up till the last rehearsal just before the actual performance. i was crying backstage and i was really scared of spoiling the musical for everyone. and i sat down and prayed hard. and lo and behold i didn't forget a single line during the show and pple came up to me and said i delivered the song well though i felt shaky so i was pleased about that.
God is indeed awesome. for showing me that anything is possible with Him around, for alleviating my fears.
come 2010 and i see a lot of changes this year. from my internship to gary ord-ing and starting schoo, i foresee a whole host of new problems or situations to work out, including the same old problems like school. but this year i'm not gonna try to solve them myself. and so this year i have no new year resolutions. except to walk closer with God, to trust wholeheartedly in God and to live my life for God.
God has truely been awesome. i'm gonna add another new year's resolution to my list: this year, i'm gonna make an effort to write in my journal or blog about every single incident that i see God present in, every prayer that He has answered and every lesson that He has taught me. quite impossible i know cos i can never truely count all His blessings but i'll still try. (:
anw i've been trying to sell my textbooks since last sem but i didn't find any buyers. this sem i was having difficulties too. i asked friends to advertise to their friends and juniors and i posted on the school's public folders but no one msged me. i was pretty frustrated cos i didn't want 4 textbooks taking up space in my room for another whole sem. then it struck me to pray about it and so i did.
and lo and behold the next day which was friday during yam while we were mingling during dinner, daphne was talking to beverley and suddenly she said hey mel beverley's studying accountancy at ntu too! and (this is quite bad but) the first thing i said was oh what courses are you taking next sem i'm selling my textbooks. :P and the amazing thing is she happens to take the exact courses which i'm selling my textbooks for so yay i now have a buyer and for all 4 textbooks at once too! :D
so yes God truely is amazing that he even bothers about the little things in my life. and how much more concerned wll He be regarding the big issues in my life?
like last night's ODJ message about the early church, 'so they responded by praying. their current plight didn't diminish God or the fact that He was in control. they trusted Him.', another of my new year's resolutions is to keep my eyes on God and trust Him even if my current situation suggests that things are going wrong.
watchin u;
at 11:47 PM
do you just bear with it even though it eats you up inside?
or do you walk away?
have you ever been in a situation where you don't know whether to take a step back or a step forward? cos both ways you end up getting hurt. but at the same time you can't stay where you are cos you're hurting right now too.
sometimes i find it silly. other times i think it's one of the biggest hurdles i'll ever have to overcome.
praying real hard about it, trying to focus on Him instead of me. there's something to be learnt from all this right?
i can't wait for school to start. maybe i'll be too busy to think about it. but when the holidays come then what? i don't wanna go through it again. but i don't know what to do either.
going to church and being around family is about the only thing that makes me smile these days.
i'm just so tired really. physically and emotionally. it's gonna be tough trying to sleep at 11 at night to wake up at 6 in the morning 4 days a week. this is bad i'm tired even before school starts.
watchin u;
at 9:28 AM
Sunday, January 03, 2010
first off i'm so thankful for the many opportunities i've been given to serve God in 2009, who knew serving the Lord was this much fun. (: thank God for YAM camp and musical, both have definitely blessed me immensely and helped me grow that much deeper in Christ.
working on YAM camp was probably the best thing to happen to me in 2009. i got to know so many awesome brothers and sisters in Christ in the process and it's been an absolute joy really. somehow they really inspire and encourage me in ways that they'll never know, through what little contact i have with them. and i'm so thankful i said yes to coll when she asked me to join the comm.
i must say doing the YAM musical was somewhat of a crazy albeit a pretty short journey of two weeks. God has really opened my eyes to how He is able (haha title of the musical!) to do the seemingly impossible.
i rmb last last year 2008 church wanted to do a musical too. we started in aug i think and halfway through it was decided that there wasn't enough time to put together one by the end of the year. and i rmb thinking, even before it was decided, that there wasn't enough time to do a musical in 4 months after being used to working on plays for about 6 months before the actual performance, being on drama in st nicks. and i was lika ha i was right.
fast forward a year 2009 and here colleen was saying she was gonna put together a musical in 2 weeks. watching her struggle with the burden left a very strong impression on me and i knew i wanted to help but i wasn't confident about acting so i said i'd help with backstage stuff. but God had other plans and i ended up with a supporting role which required me to sing as well. and somehow i said yes though i was really nervous. not to mention that the song was a new one for me and i had trouble singing it.
and so i prayed about it. and amazingly the next day, i was no longer feeling nervous but i was so excited about performing! but the song was still giving me trouble and i was still forgetting my lines, up till the last rehearsal just before the actual performance. i was crying backstage and i was really scared of spoiling the musical for everyone. and i sat down and prayed hard. and lo and behold i didn't forget a single line during the show and pple came up to me and said i delivered the song well though i felt shaky so i was pleased about that.
God is indeed awesome. for showing me that anything is possible with Him around, for alleviating my fears.
come 2010 and i see a lot of changes this year. from my internship to gary ord-ing and starting schoo, i foresee a whole host of new problems or situations to work out, including the same old problems like school. but this year i'm not gonna try to solve them myself. and so this year i have no new year resolutions. except to walk closer with God, to trust wholeheartedly in God and to live my life for God.
watchin u;
at 8:52 AM